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[Nov. 13th, 2007|08:04 pm] |
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What do you do when you are extremely bored and have nothing better to do with your time other than surf the net? When I am bored I get depressed. Being depressed is not a good feeling. I cannot believe how long it has been since I have been on LJ! I am hoping that actually having something else to occupy my mind will help me become un-depressed.
I suppose I am also just having one of those days where you think that you are one of the most useless people on earth, and thinking about all of the negative things about me. It is a crappy day, no matter how good the day actually was, now it just seems really bad.
The best way to get over it is to get it out, and believe me, if I don't I will become even more depressed and start thinking about how all my friends only pretend to like me. Which I know isn't true, but when you get into a mood, rationality has no place. |
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[Sep. 2nd, 2006|08:31 am] |
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| | let it be-the beatles | ] |
I really like my new picture, it rocks. It is of my kitty, Circe, from when I had to do my photography assignment for photo class. I love my kitty, even though her name has gotten to her head and she is an enchantress! She likes to turn men into pigs because they fawn over her. Pigs they are!! Except Matt and any other male I think is a good person out there! She is also a bitchy animal! But not like my other cat Smokey, nooooo, Smokey will bite and scratch if she is tired of you, she is my wild kitty!
Ok, I am done writing about my cats!! It was pretty entertaining even if I did sound a bit off in the head. You should read one of the bumber stickers on my car.....I LOVE MY CAT..it should have an S on CAT though. Maybe I shall do that with a sharpie!
Oh look!! I actually capitalized my writting!! I havent done that in ages, at least not on the computer! |
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| babysitting |
[Sep. 1st, 2006|07:23 pm] |
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babysitting......again....we always watch a movie! but that is probabably because we dont actually have a tv and the only time my siblings get to watch a movie is on my computer. we really need a new tv. and cable! |
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[Aug. 28th, 2006|06:53 pm] |
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so my sister asked if everybody dies....my stepmom said yes and that one day, U (my sis) will someday die. then she totally broke down crying about that. i dont understand why...but i think that it was kind of funny. i am sorry if that sounds totally cruel and insensitive, but hey, then again, u werent there!! so HA! lol |
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[Aug. 18th, 2006|11:06 pm] |
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| | David Bowie | ] |
My party is tomorrow!!! I cannot wait. I am very excited.
uh oh....my dad just came in and told me to go to sleep! so much for writing more tonight!! |
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[Aug. 18th, 2006|08:57 pm] |
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My dad is coercing me into reading to my siblins for their bed time story. I am being picked to read to Sophia, which isn't really that big of a deal, but it is still the thought that counts. I will write more after I am done reading to my sis. |
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| I am back from Esalen!!! |
[Aug. 17th, 2006|09:11 am] |
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| | Home!!!!! | ] |
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| |  drained | ] |
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| | computer is on shuffle | ] |
It may be a place of great beauty and hot springs, but if you aren't careful it will eat you and never let you go!!
I got back from Esalen yesterday night. I had a really great time, except now I have a head cold because of the hot tubs and the cold air. The two just don't mix. The food there is soooooo good, it is gourmet healthy food, lots of stuff for vegetarians! I love this place. The people there are really nice and friendly.
I had a massage and it was freaking awesome! This will have been my second time going there. I love the place, but wouldnt want to live there, there are too many unstable people and people with huge egos.
Everyone went in the nude when they were in the hot tubs, it was a very interesting experience....
I am glad to be home now because I can sleep in my own bed and everything.
And I get to see all my friends this Saturday!!!! |
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[Aug. 6th, 2006|11:12 pm] |
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So I am reading a really good book, of course it is on the required reading list for Country Day, but it is actually really good. The book is called Prep: an novel and it is by Curtis Sittenfeld. I am totally enjoying it. I just started it today and I am already more than halfway done with it. Everyone should read it!!!!
PS. i am HOME!!!!!!!!! |
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[Aug. 4th, 2006|09:46 pm] |
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I have to study and I really dont want to.... does that make me crazy? I feel sort of crazy right now. Very insane. There are two 15 yr old french girls staying in the same house as me in SF.... they are driving me wild cause they are so quiet and reserved....then again wouldnt you be as well if you were in a stupid doomed country where you didnt speak the language that well. One of the girls... Annie speaks it very well, but Lea doesnt speak it that well.
During dessert all of us here were having a very heavy conversation on how the USA is going down and something very bad is going to happen soon. Everyone wants to leave the US and I would as well. Maybe I should go to Italy....you know...CUTE guys....LOL. |
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| S.F. |
[Aug. 3rd, 2006|10:24 pm] |
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| | chipper | ] |
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| | Chicago | ] |
I am in San Francisco in my stepmoms best friends house. They are in Europe, her best friend i mean and her family. We are here with BB, the grandmother, the nanny and some other man I dont know at all. Charlie I think is his name, but I wouldnt put it past me to not get his name correct.
I am listening to Chicago right now, the one about the interview and them both reaching for the gun....it was really interesting trying to sing it and write at the same time. |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2006|09:54 pm] |
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| | Because we can - moulin rouge | ] |
thank you Sophie for making me watch The Nightmare Before Christmas... It was really good. I really liked it. That means that I have watched 3 movies in the last 24 hrs. That is purtty cool! The only one that I hadnt seen was the one I just watched, the Nightmare Before Christmas one. The others I just hadnt seen in a really long time. ok, i am tired of writing and even though it is early, i might just go to bed. |
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[Aug. 2nd, 2006|02:18 pm] |
I am at Sophie's house right now. I just spent the night at her house. We slept on the roof of her garage. It was really cool, but uncomfortable since the roof was really hard.
I have my class todat, but I am not really looking forward to it this time. I want to stay home and play the day away.
I watched The Lion King for the first time in like 6 yrs. It made me cry and now I want to see the second one.
Maybe I can rent it from the movie store. |
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[Jul. 31st, 2006|09:21 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| |  bored | ] |
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| | music of conversation | ] |
There are a bunch of loud screaming children in my dads house right now. They are really REALLY loud, screaming like banshees they are!
My cat is in a demonic mood and is possessed by the devil herself. At this moment she is galloping behind and through the chairs and couches. Then right as I was writing that she leaped onto the back of the couch where I am on my computer right now. It scared me.....a lot.
My dad, Sophia, Julian and I went for a bike ride then went to Baskin Robins, I had my usual of daquiri ice and rasberry sherebert. It is the best of them all!!!!
Everyone has suddenly joined me in the living room as I am writing this, my dad and his friend and employee, Mez and his wife and children. The loud ones.
I think that I might try and get a job at Baskin Robbins, it wouldnt be as bad as some other jobs I could name.
Oooooh!!! Today in my anthropology class today we talked about VAMPIRES and zombies. I never knew that zombies are actually real!!!! They are the Voodoo way of social control. You wouldnt believe how they came about.
Okay, so whenever someone was being very bad and not stopping what they where doing, even with the priest or priestessess warning, then that priest or priestess would give that person a drug of ground up blowfish which is toxic to us. It paralyzes the person while they are still concious. Then comes the wierd part.... They bury that person alive.....in a grave. They know that it takes about 12-15 hours for the drug to wear off. So they wait 16 hours then they raise the person from the grave and the priest or priestess says that their soul is gone and they are now their slave, they must do whatever the priest/priestess says. That is what is the real zombies are like!!! Cool isnt it?!?!?!? |
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[Jul. 30th, 2006|05:38 pm] |
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| | eminem (NOT by choice!!!!) | ] |
so after bitching on and on and on about not speaking farsi and being the middle person, i didnt even go to the party. instead i went over to my dads best friends house to see them. i call them my cousins and their father 'amu' which means uncle. i had fun and we went and saw JON TUCKER MUST DIE. it was great. i am over at their house again while my dad and amu are gallavanting off to LA. we went to the Bowler museum to see performances and a display on 'Iranian culture' it was soooo NOT. |
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| iranians, MAN!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|10:23 pm] |
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| | some arabic music | ] |
i am in southern cal until monday afternoon. i had about 4 hrs of sleep last night cause i had to do laundry and i got home at like 10:45, close to 11 and then i had to get up at 5 am to go to my dads house so that we could leave to go to the airport. luckily i had like a 2 hour nap, i could have used more and i am really sleepy now.
me my dad and my sister are the only ones who came,tiffany and julian stayed home because julian is sick. anyways we are staying at my aunts house, it can be really frustrating cause she and my dad only speak farsi and rarely use english. i can understand it if it is said in a slower way, but the way that they keep on talking i am left in the dark. i am the only one you see, because sophia can understand farsi, but she cannot speak it. it can be very confusing.
all that we have been listening to is persian music, which i really love and watching the iranian channel on tv, which i hate.
i really wanted to see my "uncle" today and his 3 kids. we get to see them tomorrow before the party that my aunt is throwing with her cousin.
i can hardly wait. big noisy parties with lots of iranians. yippeeee. yeah right. i am not going to be able to understand a thing and everyone will be talking to me in farsi and i will just be all like ' sorrry have no idea what you just said. my dad never taught me farsi'. which is completely true and i blame all my trouble squarley on his shoulders.
at least my cousins will be here with their children. they can talk to me. the problem is, is that everyone is either years older than me or is really really young. there is no one in that middle age, i mean even if someone was at least in their early 20s it would be a little better.
thats all right i guess. i am use to it after yrs and yrs of going through it all, now it is just routine and i know what to expect and what not to expect. i just wish that it was differnt this time around. |
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| whatever |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|12:59 pm] |
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so i got up this morning at like 10 o clock because my dad woke me up. i could have slept more, but he was all like 'its ten, wake up'. my stepmom tiffany was really mad at me cause she wanted to go to yoga at nine, but i was still asleep. i had also said that i had to do homework for my class during the day and when she got home from doing something today i wasnt doing it. last night her and my dad had suggested that i do it at night since i stay up until one doing god knows what anyways. i took their advice and that is what i did.
i told tiff that and she was all like then i could have gone to yoga today but you slept in until ten. i was kindof suprised at this because usually tiff wakes me up at 8:30 so that she can make it to yoga at 9, so i thought that she hadnt wanted to go. that just made me frustrated, especially since she came home and off the bat expected me to go to the car and take all the groceries out and put them away without helping out. it is just soooo inconsiderate!!!! thank god i am going to my moms house tonight!!!!!!!!!! |
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| DAMN it!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|12:42 am] |
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FUCK as well, i agree with you Sophie |
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| i hate what life deals us sometimes |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|12:28 am] |
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life has its moments, then it has those other moments when everything is going great, then BAMB it hits you again. it pulls you under and holds you there while you have no choice but to ride it out. you may be miserable and frightend, but does life really care? no it doesnt. it keeps on going all around you, and then when it finally spits you back out, you feel as though time has passed by you.
whats up with that? is it really your choice for something to happen to you, even if you think that you are making the right choices, but in the end they end up being completely and utterly WRONG?!?! whats up with that? it doesnt make any sense. if you did something that would make you truly and utterly happy and thought that it was the best for everyone around you, then you fall flat out on your face because suddenly nothing in your life is right anymore what would you do?
go to your friends and ask for comfort? see a counsler or other person like that? pig out, feeling sorry for yourself? what is the best solution? i certianly wouldnt know.
i have no idea if any of this made any sense at all, but i am feeling very emmotionally challenged right now, they are very close to the surface and i can only say that i am glad that it is 12:35 in the morning so that no one is around to antagonize me.
thank god i am going to my moms house tomorrow. i can get a little emmotional support from her and spill all that i am feeling. i am very thankfull that at a time when most teenagers dont get along with their parents my mom is almost like my best friend as well as a mother.
i love my mom for that and thank god i do or else i would have a hell of a time spending everyother week with her. as it is, those single weeks are my chance to relax and unwind before going back to a house full of loudness and whiny demanding siblings. |
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| myspace |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|12:22 am] |
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oh my god!! myspace is soooo frustrating. they have had a power outage and now i can't access any of my stuff!! ARGH! oh well, it has been like that since yesterday and they have no idea how long it will be before a person can go back on again. this stinks. i never really realized how addicted i was to myspace until i didnt have it anymore. what would happen to us if there was no longer any internet or computers, that they just ceased to exist? our world would be a terrible thing indeed. i certianly cannot imagine it. can you? |
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| today |
[Jul. 9th, 2006|09:37 pm] |
So I went to Mill Valley today. We were searching for a dresser for me and my sister. It was fruitless though since there was almost no one having garage sales. Which is totally abnormal for that area.
Then we went to Fairfax and had ice cream at the Scoop, which by the way is the BEST ice cream in the world and is totally organic. IT ROCKS ASS!!!!!! If anyone goes to Fairfax, they HAVE to go to this place or else I will come and get you and make you eat it!!!!!!!! or else! |
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